faith.

just in a year, what once could have been a very very big grudge

has now been laid at the feet of Jesus, forgiven, forgotten

selah

Francis Chan (via iaskgod)

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(even though i only had two…the feeling of freedom the weekend after apush was completely destroyed by math class.

sigh.)

i hate going to school now. and it’s not just because i don’t want to work, or because i hate getting up (though that’s part of it). i hate being in a place where i’m just completely bombarded with all this negative, unbiblical crap. where no one is religious, or doesn’t follow their religion. where i’m pressured to fit in, because people are so incredibly judgemental.

so i start to dress like them. i start to act like them. i start to become them.

i can’t keep up this act for very long, or i’m going to be stuck like them. wondering what in the world happened. wondering what’s the point anymore.

the scary thing is, i’m starting to wonder.

but i realized that if all the christians in the world (the ones that actually cared) suddenly decided that they didn’t want to be in uncomfortable situations, the rest of the world would be lost. to the sin, to the pain, to everything that reminds us that we’re most definitely not perfect, and it shows. the devil is everywhere. without Christ, there is nothing. and who’s to show people that, if not those christians?

so i guess i’ll go back to school tomorrow, and for the rest of my high school and college career, and try not to conform.

to be an example of God’s love, especially when i don’t want to (aka guys hitting on me or being jerks to everyone without realizing); to care about people, to love. to stop being like everyone else, talking behind people’s backs, spreading gossip, hating. 

to know that when it really comes down to it, there’s really only two options: not caring about anything, or knowing that nothing else matters except for Christ.

kingdom mindset.

[for to me, to live is Christ and to die is gain. —Philippians 1:21]

Unshaken - Attaboy

Moriah Peters

Philippians 2:14-16 (via thesweetermelody)

C.S. Lewis (via aliveandunbroken)

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belovedservantofgod asked: Hey! I still have what you won from my give-away, "Attitudes of a Transformed Heart". I don't think you got any of my old messages with my e-mail and Skype. Do you still want it? If so, I'll need a name and address. :)

oops, I guess you didn’t get my response, and I didn’t get any emails…could you email me? eyan529@yahoo . com

follytotheworld:

Ahh, people I know are going tumblr famous :) 

what makes someone a worship leader? God.

what is worship leading about? God.

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luke 6:45

The good person out of the good treasure of his heart produces good, and the evil person out of his evil treasure produces evil, for out of the abundance of the heart his mouth speaks.

last night I experienced what it means to speak from the heart.

I was told a story. of a man who did not have much, but was willing to give what little he had for our family, even though we’re already well off, so much more than he. that he could be so unselfish…!

time and again, God uses those around me to make me realize that, no, I’m not as perfect as I sometimes think I am. that I don’t have every thing figured out; that I need Him so, so badly.

and that sometimes, out of the overflow of the heart, my mouth speaks.

I cry out because I don’t know how to do this

on my own with no one to lead me

take my heart and change it for all your plans

I’m broken

Lord Your love has rescued me

Your love has set me free

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Anonymous asked: Esther, has anyone ever you that religiously, you're very inspiring? I wouldn't say you have life all figured out, but regarding God and what you want, you're a lot more solid than others, and it's really good to see. You understand when the things you do are selfish, and you can really differentiate yourself as an individual away from the group, and a lot of people can't do that. Of course it's not perfect, but it's good Esther. Keep up the insight, it leads to good development ^_^

you have no idea how much i needed to know that i’m not the only one seeing God changing me.

thank you so much, anon.